For the past few weeks, I've been sensing the familiar aroma that makes me feel your presence. It always come at a time when I am feeling down or alone.
Time and again, I would wonder what if you are still here with me. I know that physically it would be better that you go. You have told your son that in times like what has happened with you some seven years or so, it would be best if we just let you go. You don't want to suffer physically, be a burden financially and emotionally. But whether we don't want to, the situation calls for it. Because, you simply have accomplished your mission here on earth. And you need to go home.
But every time your presence is felt, you always leave me the feeling of being safe and secure no matter what the present situation is. And I survive another day and time of my life.
You have never left me at all. I can call you anytime for your company. You and God always make sure I am okay.
My life is so simple and yet I feel inner peace and contentment. I feel I am well provided for despite of the struggles that I go through sometimes.
I know that many might not just believe me. But, it's okay. But how would you explain those times when I would smell your coffee? Me, smelling coffee inside the bathroom when I have no one else with me? I always check my surroundings every time. Our kitchen is quite a distance from the bedroom and my bedroom is closed. I got no neighbors. The lot next to the house I live is vacant. The house next to our place is empty and some even said that it is haunted.
Even when I am outside in the garden, I would suddenly smell coffee and it is always right next to my face, that close, huh! Or when I am taking a nap and suddenly I would wake up smelling coffee just like the cup is right before my lips? Or when I am inside the computer room where I could say that it is isolated? I even smell coffee when I am walking alone (as always) out in the street?
Too many times to count but I know that it is you. So, you never really left me, did you? But knowing that you are keeping me company, that is a welcome idea. But hey, you should also pay rent, haha!
